My 3 ring circus

I can't believe it's been over 2 months since I've blogged! Let me share a few new layouts before I hit ya with the personal stuff! LOL!





You can see all the credits at my gallery here: http://www.digishoptalk.com/gallery/showgallery.php?ppuser=24

So, for the personal stuff...

The main reason I haven't blogged is because I just didn't want to jump on here and complain and sound negative all the time. You know...if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say it. (See Mom, I did learn something while I was young.) I'm talking about my personal issues, my frustrations as a SAHM of 3 boys, my depression. It's not something I think I need to share with everyone...or the 3 people that read my blog! LOL! What has me wanting to blog now? Well, I got into contact with some of my 'old' high school friends over at http://www.myspace.com/. It made me realize something. It made me realize how unhappy I am with myself! Note...I say myself, not my life, my family, my kids. I am unhappy with how I've let myself go. How my physical body and my spiritual life have changed so drastically since high school. Both really started to change after I had my kids. No, I am not blaming them, but myself! My decisions haven't been the best and it's because I haven't really felt worthy of the attention I need to give myself to change! I'm consumed with taking care of my 3 boys and hubby that I just ignore myself and honestly, I medicate myself with food. Meaning, when I'm stressed out with the boys...I eat. You get my drift. Anyway, I have lots to change to make things better for myself and my family. David and I are talking things thru and trying to make changes in our lifestyle (eating better and getting exercise). I'm also going to try to blog more about what is REALLY going on with me. I've gotten so good at hiding my true feelings. I promised myself that I wouldn't do that anymore, that I will be honest and not hide behind my fat any longer!

If you would, please say a prayer for my Mom and Dad. My Mom is having her back fused (I think in 2 places) on July 5th. She needs prayer for healing and for her pain before and after the surgery! It's bad. Also, please pray for my Dad...I'm sure this has to be HARD on him and he won't say it.

I'll end this post with a little boys news:

o Anakin...I don't even know what to say! Sometimes I feel like our relationship and his behavior is the worst there is. I always hear of how wonderful other kids are...please tell me I'm not the only one dealing with this!!! UGH! He has been on Summer break for what? 2 weeks...and I'm about ready to climb the wall! He's been acting like a 2 year old! I feel like he has NO respect for me (or David really) and just wants to do his own thing. We're working on a behavior chart and a chore chart. I think he needs that visual confirmation. I love Anakin so much and he just doesn't receive it well. That hurts. If anyone has any suggestions, please tell me!

He started camp (once a week for many weeks) thru David's work last week. He loves it. Summer Bible School starts on Monday too...both he and Tristin get to go this year. :) Some of my best memories are of going to Bible School.

o Tristin...little T. He's soooooo funny. He's obsessed with Superman and Spiderman right now. We have been letting his hair grow (his bangs) and he's getting a "curl" like Superman. LOL! I love his imagination. Tonight is the first night he has worn big boy underwear to bed. He's been staying dry at night for over 2 weeks, so we thought we'd try it. He wakes up almost every night and has been really good about going to the bathroom and going right back to bed. :) Tristin started "summer school" last week. It's like a preschool playgroup. They are in the same classroom that he was in last year in Pre-K for 4 year olds and he'll be in the 5 year old Pre-K in the Fall.

o Paxtin...he is a joy. I keep saying that, but it's so true. Maybe it's because he still thinks I'm cool. LOL!!!! He has been a Mommy's boy a lot recently. I love it, of course. He has started talking in long sentences and it's so fun to hear what he'll come up with! I can't even think of an example right now...I'm going to have to start taking some notes! LOL! Just an odd FYI...I am letting his hair grow back out. We tried the big boy shaved look and it just made him look so old! I missed his little curls. Even if they don't curl as much as they used to, it's still adorable!

Okay, that's enough, I'm tired! Hope you're glad to see me back! :) I'm glad to be back. Now...if I could just get someone to re-do my sidebar for me. ;)