[Emotions]

I am an emotional person. With all this hormonal stuff going with me...it's not good because it's like 200 times worse! I was blog hopping tonight and ran into Andrea Burn's blog. Here: http://embellishbyandrea.blogspot.com/ She's pregnant with boy #2. Just reading about the comments people have said to her...wow, it just brought a rush of memories back to me. Not good ones. While I was pregnant with Tristin, my 2nd boy, it was ok. I handled the comments okay. I still had a little hope that #3 would be a girl, right? While pregnant with Paxtin, my 3rd, it was hell. People were so mean. The comments were awful, even from friends. I don't even want to repeat them. How in the world can people make such rude comments and worse yet, IGNORE the fact that I am pregnant. It was like my pregnancy didn't matter. I'm not being selfish or bitter or making it up! Even my hubby noticed it. Anyway, I think about this often when I am looking at Paxtin...I could have missed THIS.

Him. He's such a joy. He's been the easiest baby. He's almost always content. He's super smart (of course...lol) and is just...gosh, he's just adorable. I cannot in a million years imagine my life without him. It's hard having a 6 and 4 year old. I hold Paxtin and just enjoy his little self. Him poking my nose repeatedly and saying "nose" "nose" "nose". Hearing him call David "Honey" because that's what I call him. Ugh, I could go on and on. I'm not sure why I'm blogging this. I guess I just needed to "talk" about it and David is sleeping. lol! Okay, so...emotional...yes. AND I can't stop eating sugar. Not good for the "change of life" diet!

I'm back at in on Monday. I'm giving myself one more day of whatever and then I have to do it...

[On a lighter note...]

I love it when I read blogs and they tell what they have bought. I don't know why, maybe because it's just a window into their life? Well, I love to shop but I don't do a lot of it for myself...unless you're counting digi products! Case in point...I haven't bought a purse in probably 7 years or more! Well, this week Paxtin and I went to Meijer and I looked. I've been looking everywhere and just haven't liked the styles. Too many tossles and eyelet things. Save those for scrapbooking people! But, I found this (sorry, that's the biggest pic I could find) purse. The one I bought is red but not bright. I don't use the long strap either. It's so not me. I've been carrying a diaper bag for almost 7 years! When I saw this, I knew it was done. I can throw a diaper in here and a few wipes...and Paxtin's passy and forget everything else! LOL! Anyway, it has a paisley print on it and that's so not me either...but I LOVE it.

Two things David bought this weekend that totally suprised me. I don't have pictures so you'll have to go off of my description! LOL! We took the boys to Tanners Saturday to buy apples and some apple donuts (see, I told you!!!!!!). http://www.tannersorchard.com/ I found an old lantern type thing that you put a candle in...and he bought it for me! We don't buy things like that a lot. ;) Then, he was looking around (not normal either) and he found a clock thing...okay, I'll take pictures because I don't know how to describe them! But, anyway, he piled that in our cart too. It was fun to have HIM pick something out and actually want to buy it. I get so sick of having to ASK him. He says I shouldn't feel that way but I do! I don't bring in money...and I like to shop so I have to hold back! K, I'll get pictures and update this tomorrow...

I'm so procrastinating! I should be working on my hard drive...I'm almost done sorting through everything and rearranging and copying the things I want to keep available at all times. Tomorrow comes the BURNING! Then, the backup to my external hard drive....and then I can scrap! I've got tons of new kits and elements to download from my Creative Teams! I'm so behind! :(

[I missed my blogger anniversary!]

October 17, 2005 - I started this blog! I can't believe it's been over a year already!

[I'm sooooo proud of Anakin!]

We received Anakin's 1st report card today. All E's (exceeds expected) and a 100% in spelling. The teacher even commented that he is a great reader. :) I'm soooooo proud of him...almost makes me want to cry! LOL! We have his first conference tomorrow. It's a "student led" conference so Anakin will be showing us what he's been working on, etc.

Also, last Saturday Anakin had his first JBQ (Junior Bible League) Meet. Basically, the kids are givin questions and they have to learn them and the answers word for word. Then, they use buzzers to buzz in and answer the questions. The goal is to know the QUESTION within the first few words...sometimes the first 2 words! Can you imagine? Well, get this...Anakin blew us and most of the competition away! David and I were completely shocked. Not that he's not smart and doesn't know his stuff...we just weren't sure how he'd deal with the competition. So, they had 6 rounds. Out of those 6, Anakin "quizzed out" on 5. That means that he answered the maximum number of questions allowed - five. Because of this he gets 10 extra points. :) Okay, back up... round 1, 2, 3, 4...they went great. Round 5 he had a breakdown. He was starting to get tired and restless. The competition was buzzing in before him (even if they got the question wrong...that made it worse for Anakin because he knew it) well, his team mates also dominated this round. It was kind of funny because they were pretty quiet the other rounds! So, Anakin started to get upset and then it happened...he got a question wrong. There are two questions that are almost the same and he didn't get enough of the question to know which one it was. :( Anyway, round 6 came and thank God we had a few minutes to talk to him, reassure him and let him take a breather. He was a little off in this round too but only because the other team was quick and good! BUT, my boy did it! He quizzed out again! He ended up in Second place overall (individual) and their team came in 3rd for their division. Not bad for their first meet ever! So, here's a layout I did yesterday. I'm suppose to be cleaning my hard drive...burning DVDs and getting stuff off of here! I'm doing it...I just needed a break! (Of course my photo isn't showing up, so you can check it out here):

http://www.digishoptalk.com/gallery/showphoto.php?photo=35324&cat=500&ppuser=138

[Get ready for TMI!]

TOO MUCH INFORMATION...I've been having some bleeding issues the past few weeks. Last week I saw a new OB/GYN...he basically told me to call the office if it got worse. Well, on Monday, it did. I was bleeding very heavily and had HUGE clots. Worse than after having the boys! They started me on some estrogen which is helping to slow it down. I asked the doctor today (when I went back to see him) how that works. He basically said that the lining of the uterus "evens out" with estrogen. Anyway, why am I worried about all this? Well, I'm in the middle of a 3 month cycle of the depo provera shot! I'm not suppose to be bleeding AT ALL. I knew spotting was one of the side effects...I didn't realize GUSHING blood was. (Sorry) So, they talked about doing a D&C to clean things out. We're holding off on that to see how things go on my own. Next month, I'm switching birth control. I'm trying the Nuva Ring...anyone tried it? LOL! It's that or an IUD and I don't want to do that...unless David gets snipped and then there's no chance for fertilization. Ugh...I feel so odd about all of this. This isn't suppose to be happening! I already have PCOS...I have to deal with that crap every day. The hair loss/growth, the moods, the medication, the depression, the weight gain...now this. UGH!!!!

Okay, I'm off to bed! If you made it through this entry...you earn a star. ;)

[Digging out]

I just realized that my inbox has 730 emails...130 some UNREAD. What in the world? No wonder I forget to respond to emails. I'm sorry friends!!! I'm digging out right now.

[Colds]

Everyone has colds. Coughing snot up (sorry)...allergies, asthma (Tristin)...I hate this! No one is on allergy medication YET. We usually end up having to by now, but I'm putting it off. I hate drugging the boys (Anakin & Tristin).

[Doctor Appointment]

I'm going to a new OB/GYN today. Get ready for TMI! I am on DepoProvera...I get a shot every 3 months. I'm on month 2 and I'm spotting. I shouldn't be! So, off to the GYN. I am nervous.

ETA* - My appointment went well. Dr. Galvan was really nice. I guess I'm just going to stay with him...because, get this...he had to EXAM me. I wasn't expecting it and there is nothing like having to spread your legs for a guy you don't know...LMBO!!!!!!!! Anyway, he things my bleeding is just from the Depo shot. I'm due for a shot in a month...and he gave me some info on another form on bc. It's the one that lasts for 5 years. I didn't realize I could do that one because of my blood pressure, etc. But, he reassured me that I can do it. I read a brochure and I'm going to do it. It's the same medication as the Depo, it's just not as much and for a longer period of time.

My new friend, Kristine, watched the boys for me while I went to the doctor. She had already planned on having them for an hour anyway. It worked out perfectly! We originally had planned to swap sitting every week. We both wanted to volunteer in our boys' classrooms. Jake, her oldest, is in 1st grade and was in Anakin's kindergarten class. He's in a different class this year. Anyway, I talked to Anakin's teacher and she informed me that she doesn't need Mom helpers for the day to day activities. (In kindergarten and 1st grade they do "centers" where they work on things and then move to the next "center" and work on something else.) She only needs helpers for the bigger activities. Well, okay, made me feel like an idiot for asking. She's young...seems a little TOO confident. I know, that's not bad, but when you make me sit in my 1st graders chair and you stand up in front of me and bark your info...makes me feel little and worthless! I wonder how the kids feel!?!??! So, I asked Anakin! I asked him if he still liked her. He said, no, she's bossy. LOL!!!!!!!!!!!! We talked a little more and he admitted that he likes her, he just doesn't like how she talks to everyone. I totally know what he means! I didn't let him know that though.

Okay, I'm about aready to fall asleep! Later!

[I won a contest!]

I almost forgot! Check it out here: http://www.acherryontop.com/article?a=810. (Okay, why did it post this picture and not the others? UGH!)

[Here it is...the biggest TOOT ever!]

Jen Wilson asked me to be on her Creative Team!!!

For Lindsey (or anyone else that isn't a digi scrapper - LOL!) she's one of the most talented digi designers that I know. www.jenwilsondesigns.com She has a paper line too... :)

So, this is how it happened. Jen had a little contest asking for unique 'nostalgia' element ideas. I immediately started thinking...and the things that popped into my head first were: - carnival glass (for the color and textures), - old drawer pulls, - old radio dials (for dates) and I think there were a few others...I can't remember now! So, I started looking online for examples. I got eBay searches in the results so I started searching there. I found some great examples and I also found amazingly cool "employee badges" from...the 40's, I think. Of course, the one I really liked expired and the seller took the picture down before Jen saw it...I'm still searching for another one like that. (Yes, emailed the seller and did NOT hear back from him...errrrrr.) So, Jen emailed me and basically said she loved my ideas and a few emails later I got an email about filling out a something...I was confused and read on... I about fell off my chair. I sat there in disbelief because although I teased her about needing me on her team (hee heeee) I never EXPECTED that it would ever happen. But, it did.

Picture me doing the happy dance! :) Okay, maybe not.

[New Layouts]

Seriously, I don't get blogger and it's issues with loading pictures! It won't let me load them. You can see my new layouts at DST: http://www.digishoptalk.com/gallery/showgallery.php?cat=500&ppuser=138 Make sure and check out the one of Tristin called "Clark Kent"...he's too cute.

[Tristin's 4 Year old Well Check-up]

Tristin went to the doctor this week. He's only 30 lbs and short (can't remember but it's below the 10th percentile. His weight is the 2nd percentile. He's TINY...if he stays on this growth curve or whatever it's called, he'll be 5' 5". Which, isn't surprising since David is only 5' 7". I just feel bad for Tristin. I never thought in a million years that my kids would be so small. I'm huge! I'm 5' 10" and (I hate it when people say it, but it's true) I am "big boned". I've come to realize that there are a lot of tall women out there...I've ran into a lot lately, not sure why...that are sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo skinny. I mean, almost to the point where it looks wrong. I've never been like that! So, I'm just worried about him. Everything else checked out great and he got 2 shots. Poor guy, it's been a year since he's had one and man, he was NOT happy about having to have one!

Funny story...on Tristin's birthday I was telling him about the day he was born (I honestly can't remember if I shared this already so read on and humor me). He asked where he came out...first he asked if he came out my mouth. LOL! I told him no and quickly said, "you came out my pee pee". Yes, we call penis' pee pee's so I just decided to call mine that. Come on! I have 3 boys! So, the doctor asked something...and Tristin started talking. He likes to talk and rambles BIG TIME...changing from one subject to another and goes into long made up stories. Right now he likes to talk about trying to find Jerry, I think from "Tom & Jerry". Anyway, he started talking about being in my tummy and how he was scared. LOL! Then, he paused and said, "but, I came out my Mommy's pee pee and I was happy". OHHHH MYYYYYYYY GOSH. I think I turned beet red and the doctor cracked up! I'm sure he had to have told someone when he left that room! LOL!

With that, I say have a great weekend! I'm doing the touch up painting in the living room (we procrastinated yesterday because David had a temp and we had a date - we took the kids to the sitter and sat at home and watched Lost!)...dishes and laundry today. Fun fun! Hopefully, I'll have living room pictures tonight. :)

[Crazy]

My life has been even more crazy than it normally is...on Tristin's birthday, we started some home improvement. A friend of ours refinished our hard wood floors in our living room. That took 3 days. Since then, David has been painting the room. It is taking forever! He works all day then comes home and works on it right away. I usually take the boys out of the house or take them outside or downstairs. Our life seems so crazy right now! We are looking forward to being able to eat at our kitchen table again, sit in the living room on our new furniture...and just have room to walk around! Here are some pictures:

***UGH! Why?!?!?! I accidently deleted this picture and now I can't get it re-loaded! I will try again later or tomorrow...I know you really want to see my nasty before pictures! ;)

This is the before shot of the floors.
Nasty...I can't believe it took us this long to get them refinished!
You can see where the couch was...lol!

Here's Paxtin playing...it's been hard to keep him out of the room! I think
he's holding David's "safety glasses" here. He loves them!
You can see the refinished floors in this picture. I didn't have time to get an "after"
shot because we went staight to painting once the floors where finished.

That is the sample paint we bought...and it will be the final color on this one wall. :) Don't ask me why David painted that shape!

Tristin painting the primer on last night...
in his underwear! LOL! I already did a layout of this
(see on the sidebar). He loves to paint and had so much fun!

...and Anakin paiting the primer. He kept moving too much so his pictures were blurry. :( I think maybe Virtual Photographer can fix it for me.

[Sickies]

In other news...Paxtin has been sick since LAST weekend. He had a fever last weekend and then broke out in a rash last Tuesday. I took him to the doctor on Wednesday because I was suppose to watch 2 boys on Friday and I knew the Mom was leaving on Thursday. I was right in what I thought it was...Roseolla...and it's viral. So, I didn't get to watch the boys. Thing is...Paxtin didn't have a fever for like 5 days and now it's back again...and this time higher. His dots are almost gone though. I'm wondering if he's got something else working on him now. Teeth? I don't know. But, Tristin has a low grade fever now...and he's going to have to miss his first day of school tomorrow. :( I'm just praying he'll be well enough to go to school on Wednesday. He has his first field trip to "Safety Town" and the Fire House. Speaking of Field Trips...Anakin has one this week too. He gets to go to a pumpkin place where they have mazes, rides, etc.

[I've been holding this in...]

I've got a HUGE, the biggest ever...Toot coming. I can't share and it's driving me nuts!

[Random Info]

This weekend I went to a huge garage sale that was put on by the Mom's of Multiples group here in town. Now, I'm sure there were lots of nice things there, but I was totally disappointed! Maybe it's because Anakin is wearing a 5-6 now and the selection is bare when you get past 4T. I don't know. But, most of the clothes were horrible. I can look at the sale racks at Target and get better clothes for maybe a few dollars compaired to the ratty clothes I saw at the garage sale. I did try to help my friend find her little girl some things too. I couldn't believe all the 80ish looking dresses that were there! Maybe I'm just too picky? LOL! I like my kids to look nice even if they are wearing Walmart clothes (which, they do a lot). Actually, I just picked up their Christmas sweaters this week at Walmart. I'm going to have to watch Anakin though...we stuffed him into the biggest size (5T) so he could match his brothers. He actually wants to match them. I'm afraid he might have to wear something else come December...but, we will run to Sears and get their pictures taken before he grows out of it! Good thing I've got 2 other kids that can take turns wearing it so it will be worth the $9 I paid for it! LOL! Do I sound cheap? :P

[Lost]

I know I'm like 20,000 years late on this craze. LOL! I wanted to watch the first season and things just got to crazy and I never got to. Well, David and rented the first DVD to the 1st season and we were hooked. I was instructed (by David) to go get the whole 1st season on DVD as soon as we were done watching the one we rented. It was cheaper just to go buy it. :) If it's anything like we were when we started watching Smallville (we watched 3 seasons in a few months so we could get caught up to watch the 4th when it started! LOL!!!!) ...no we won't be ready to start watching the first show of the season on Wednesday!

[24]

That's another one we just started watching! We rented it the same time as we did Lost. I'm sure we'll be buying those DVDs too.

[Okay...]

it's time to go watch Lost. At least I blogged, right? ;)